left empty

still the owner
of my dreams
it seems I cannot
shake you from
my mind and time
will cease rewind
to bring me peace
and yet release
me from your binds
oh, hold me still
owner of my will
and bring me pain
until my tears are rain
go unnoticed once
again. Foul foul
traitor, user, man
all those things
i feel you can
provide and yet
you still my fears
in meeting
what a greeting or
sorrow, pleasure mixed
no tonic has fixed
these horrific yearnings
that no love has nixed
I hate you and yet so
much love when you will go
bring it rain till I will
know, you love me not
denial reigns within
brain filled with rot
refusing that which
you have told me clear
turned the switch
and whispered in my ear

"I can give you nothing."